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So i havent posted in a LONG time i have not been doing very good about dieting and junk...infact i gaind 10lbs :(
it is so upsetting!
BUT...
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toni_lu13
21 October 2007 @ 01:00 pm
06 September 2007 @ 07:51 pm
I NEED TO LOSE 10 LBS BY NEXT WEDNES DAY!! UGH....I KNOW I CAN. BUT MY BOYFRIEND IS STARTING TO GET UPSET CUS I "NEVER EAT" IT SUCKS!! I HATE HAVING TO HEAR HIM COMPLAIN ABOUT STUFF LIKE THAT, HE'S THE ONE WHO TOLD ME I NEEDED TO LOSE WEIGHT...BUT NOW HE DOESNT WANT ME TO...GRRR!!!!
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sleepy23 August 2007 @ 11:22 pm
ugh. i have doing okay. could be better. today my boyfriend told me not to "over do it" what ever that means...he wants me to be skinny but he doesnt want me to do whats necessary to lose that weight! hes so weird. sometimes i just dont know what to think of him. lol. i love him tho.
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weird13 August 2007 @ 09:01 pm
hi i'm Toni, im new to all this Livejournal stuff. i just want to get some friends outside of my actual life where im criticized for wanting to lose weight! i want to lose like 40 lbs by Christmas....so yea.
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determined
determined13 August 2007 @ 07:48 pm
death by Chocolate!!!!!
so today was my moms birthday so i made her dinner and i didnt eat That much. i just shouldnt have eaten at all! but to top it off i had chocolate cake i made. im so revolting!!! i hate being me!!!
Current Mood: pissed off
pissed off13 August 2007 @ 06:16 pm
i feel like such a fat ass! i used to be really skinny, and then i got w/ this guy and he made me eat!!! i have been w/ him for the last year or so and i've never been happier...well when i was skinny i was even happier then now. if i could be skinny and w/ him it would be better then anything!!!
i love to cook but hate to eat. everyone i meet always wants me to cook for them so i eat alot, well i try not to but that doesnt always work. i dont know what to do. i dont want to stop cooking, but i dont want to eat. cooking is kind of my passion, its really the only thing i can do right!!! i wish i could control what and how much i eat. i know i can i've done it before...theres NO reason why i cant now!!!! whats wrong w/ me???
i want to be perfect! not only for myself...but for my boyfriend. he means everything to me and i feel like im not all i could be!! he says he's "happy" w/ me the way i am but i know he would be happier w/ me if i was skinnier!!!
i love to cook but hate to eat. everyone i meet always wants me to cook for them so i eat alot, well i try not to but that doesnt always work. i dont know what to do. i dont want to stop cooking, but i dont want to eat. cooking is kind of my passion, its really the only thing i can do right!!! i wish i could control what and how much i eat. i know i can i've done it before...theres NO reason why i cant now!!!! whats wrong w/ me???
i want to be perfect! not only for myself...but for my boyfriend. he means everything to me and i feel like im not all i could be!! he says he's "happy" w/ me the way i am but i know he would be happier w/ me if i was skinnier!!!
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